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Welcome to my blog!
Feb. 13
Good afternoon, Class. :) Here I am at 6.08 in the morning, still attempting to learn
powerpoint. It's pretty easy, I'm surprised. Just hoping this comes off as well as I'd imagined it would. One thing
I really like about using webpages--you can change the color of your text. Some free blogging sites won't allow you to do
that.
Jan. 20, 05
Been trying to find a place with hardwood or tile flooring, just hate carpet. No leads yet.
My student loan money should be coming by next week, so I can move. Yaaay. No more roommates! I'm so excited.
Trying to find some folks in the Yahoo chatrooms that may know someone who has a rental available, but I'm so shocked at how
they talk.........tons of pm's, none of them about rentals. Men or boys? Just come straight out and ask my bra size??
:O What does that have to do with anything? Tired of the a/s/l bit; I don't go to chats to pick people up, just to chat.
Doesn't anyone have that concept anymore?
Nov. 15
What a day, and it's just begun. I have so many bills, small by comparison to others, but HUGE
to me. Just got a bill from a doc I went to see last month, $101.00 for an office call. Medicare graciously picked
up 44.00 of it, leaving me with a $101.00 balance. I owe my phsychologist $100.00. A friend of mine was helping
me with that, but his company sold out to a new one, and the new company has been messing up the employee's pay, so he's broke
and can't help me.
Sure hope I can get myself together so I can get to work soon. I hate oweing money, and the
sting is worse knowing this will be on my credit report if it's not taken care of. Before disability, my credit was
impeccable. There were late charges and such for some of my creditors because of lack of work (worked for lots of temporary
agencies--couldn't find steady employment), but I always got the bills paid. Then when I got disability, the check wouldn't
stretch beyond basic needs; there was no way I could afford to pay off my debts even though it was under $1,000 total.
totally ruined my credit for years, and it is just now in the past 2 years being cleaned up, because the bills are just falling
off. I'm ashamed of this, but there's nothing I can do until I'm able to get work.
Wondering if I should try to get employment and forget about college. I can't do both, my health
won't allow it, at least at this point. I just so hate oweing money; feels really crappy to me.
On a good note, Avon's starting to pick up a little for Christmas, and I am officially enrolled at
Madonna now. There should be no more obstacles in enrollment from now on, and that makes me happy.
My Philosophy of Religion class is going well, I love that class, and so is the management class
going well. Management piles on the work, but she's cool and is giving those of us that are short of points a chance
to get more. The mid-term she gave us was gruelling, and I would say even cruel. lol! 5 paragraph questions and
5 essay questions on 10 chapters. Not many of us did well so I'm not worried about it. Too hard to memorize 10
chapters in a week, you know?
The leadership class is over; I'm concerned about that one. With the enrollment problem and
other things, I was having difficulty in remembering to do assignments. At first we were working directly out of the
book, and she would have videos and handouts, but we didn't have to hand them in unless we did them in class. Then she
gave us handouts for homework, and me, well, I forgot about most of them, because the assignments we did from handouts
had been done in class for the first several weeks. I worked hard all last week trying to get these assignments
finished by 7 pm on Monday. I handed everything in by 8, she wasn't there, so I'll even get marked down on the one that
was due that Monday, plus the ones that were due for 3 consecutive and previous weeks. Skipped mass on Sunday just to
attempt to finish it on time.
Now I have to work extremely hard at my other 2 classes to obtain A's or B+ so it doesn't hurt my
GPA. Here I thought this term would be easy A's all around, because I dropped a class and only have 3. Since I
already had philosophy last year, I'm very familiar with the text in the philosophy of religion, and I love this stuff.
Not as easy as I thought it would be. Well, perhaps I should rephrase that-it is easy, just very time consuming and
with all the stuff going on around me it's been so difficult to concentrate. That, and I'm drinking far too much coffee.
;) It affects my thought process-racing thoughts, can't sit still, etc. I can only have 2 cups a day, not 2 pots.
:D
Can hardly wait for this term to be over. I'm feeling kinda lost, even though the weight of
the studies isn't as difficult as it was before. Guess I'm just too worried about the future, and the present money
situation. My car needs work very badly, and there's no way I can handle it at this point. lol-same old thing--need
the car to get to classes so I can get a decent paying job when I'm finished, yet I need a job to get the car fixed so I can
get to class. I'm so confused!!
It will work out, though-it has to work out. I refuse to let anything get in the way of my
college education and future employment. There's too much I want to do in the future to allow this to beat me now.
Sept. 28
Went to visit some friends tonite and the convo ended up coming around to me and my situation.
I'm in this leadership class at Madonna, and realized today how much I need to improve on social skills and communication.
I'm scared, don't trust anyone, so I don't socialize much, therefore some important skills I need are just not there. A
lot has happened to bring me to this point. I don't like where I am, being isolated. In order to move on and move up,
I feel I must be, because almost everyone I've ever met has found at least one very sensitive area and has dug into it like
a sharp, cold knife in my soul. I can't even explain the twistedness and weirdness I have experienced at the hands of others-it
is just bizzarre. So weird in fact, and so often, that i often try to convince myself that it couldn't have happened, it's
not that bad. For the sake of my own sanity, I had to accept the fact that these incidents did happen, and to get through
it so I can move on.
I feel so alone tonite, like the cavern in my heart is widening and consuming me. I'm fighting it,
telling myself that being alone is better than being lonely and hurt with someone else. It's sooo much worse with others whose
desire is to undermine you. I don't want that, then I become a bit more content thinking about it. I'm safe with me, and only
me. And God, and the saints and angels. Without my faith, surely I would be the most miserable creature who walked the face
of the earth. My friends, not imaginary but close-they exist, but on a different plane, my closest confidants. But to have
someone in the flesh to lay my head upon and weep, I so desire. I don't cry much though, except at mass and maybe sometimes
in the car when I hear a song that touches me. Just to have someone to hug me without the proverbial knife in the hand to
cut through my back to my heart. Someone who could really be a friend, encourage, discourage the bad things about me, help
keep me going, my head on straight. It's so hard to be so alone, feel so unwanted, unneeded by humanity. Commitments
to others are hard to make these days, even just going for coffee or delivering an Avon order. The fear sometimes captivates
me so much, I can't move. silly, really-I tell myself. They can only hurt me if I allow it, my soul is my own, yet I still
tremble. I cannot show my fear, nor can I allow it to rule me-I'm going into the business field, no fear allowed, at least
any that can be seen.
Sept. 22 Avon Meeting
Monthly Avon meeting was held on Monday, I know I'm a little behind in posting. :P
There were just a few samples leftover, not enough to go around, though everyone did get at least
one pack of samples earlier in the evening. A group of ladies began fighting over them. Someone grabbed a perfume and
sprayed it in my eyes, another Avon Lady opened up some Light & Lush lotion and spilled it on the floor so the other Avon
ladies would slip and not be able to get to the samples. Before you could blink an eye, we were all covered in various
Avon products, and it wasn't pretty. In fact, we gave a whole new meaning to mud-mask wrestling Monday, but I ran out victorious-I
got 1/2 of them. ;)
Portions of this story may or may not be true.
Sept. 21
There was a gallery opening again this past Friday. We celebrated the gallery's birthday-3 years
old! It was a blast. They had a mariache band playing, lots of wine and tons of Mexican food. Really nice evening.
I finally figured out that I can't do algebra-at least not until I get a pre-algebra class.
I can't take another class now, I have to just drop it and wait until next term. financial aid and everything is going
to be messed up. :( o, well. The trials and tribulations of me.
Sept. 3, '04
I met this guy at Ramseys coney about a week and a half ago, he wanted an Avon book. Calls me with
an order, ok great. Very expensive ring-one of our gold ones. I'm really excited, my order was pretty big, and I would actually
make a decent commission. I could buy some shoes for school and maybe an inexpensive scanner and camera that would actually
be compatable with my software.
He calls alot about this ring until it comes in. I met him yesturday at the restaurant,
he looks at it, it's beautiful--the waitress and I were awestruck at it. Then he proceeds to tell me he has 2 housepayments
and a bunch of bills and can't get it. ???? I stared at him blankly, not believing this is happening. What were all the calls
for, I'm thinking. What's he up to. He said something about inconvienencing me and asked me if I have a problem with it. I
told him flat out-the money from this ring was my commission from my sales. Sending it back will really hurt me. I don't do
that well at it. He asked some personal questions about my dating, etc. Told him I'm not seeing anyone because I'm busy with
college, and I'm not really interested in dating anyone. He's old enough to be my dad, or at least darn close. Just because
I'm not 20 anymore doesn't mean I want to date a fossil. I didn't tell him that part, though.
Then, his girl walks
in, sees me with him and walks out. I thought, what should I do, run up to her with the ring and tell her I'm the Avon Lady,
he was going to buy it for her, but decided not to? so I stayed put and watched her almost run him over with her SUV. Felt
vindicated. :D
The restaurant was abuzz for a bit afterward. Everyone was shocked that he didn't get the ring, especially
after I told them he called me 3x since Monday alone about it. Wonder what he was really up to?
It is a pretty funny
story, though. I feel like a homewrecker and didn't do a darned thing. :)
Tues, Aug 10
wow, been awhile since I updated this. Is anyone reading it? lol.
I MADE THE HONOR ROLL WINTER TERM! The classes were much easier this time around. Lots of homework
and quizzes every week in 2 classes, fortunately I liked them so it was much easier to study. Philosophy with Fr. Ron
was incredible. I understand the New Testament a little better now, learning of the philosophers and early church fathers
who were also philosophers. The other class with quizzes every week was on world problems which held my interest, and that
was pretty easy to get through.
Been busy this summer painting. Always wanted to do it, so I gathered up some supplies I had leftover
from doing crafts and headed down to a local community college. I asked the instructor if it was ok if I stuck around
and painted. ;) So far, a model in Finland wants to purchase one for a nice price, (I'll be an international artist!!) someone
commissioned me to do a fairy-wow, was that difficult-I'm terrible with human form. That's why I do abstract still life! :D
It was a good challenge, and I completed it today. Took me almost 18 hours to do. I'm not that satisfied with
it, but it is one of the first set of paintings done, so I guess it's not that bad. Hope she likes it more than I do!
I'll show it to you once she has it-not going to post it on my art page until she has seen it live. A friend has
commissioned me to make a similiar painting to one I already completed-but in different colors. This is so exciting;
one always hopes their artwork will sell, and this is happening very quickly.
Lots of folks are saying I'm a good artist. Must be, if so many people want my paintings! :D
Night, folks. Early day tomorrow-need to get to the community college and work on some more stuff.
This is the last week of class. :( I'm soo bummed, I have 4 more blank canvas to work on, and doubt I'll get them all
painted. Then shortly, it's off to Madonna. Where has the time gone?
Mon. 3/29 evening
He called. Profusely apologized, said he just can't be the kind of guy for me that I need.
He likes to party, etc. He wants to be friends, values our friendship, and didn't want to drag me down into his lifestyle.
He was surprised I wasn't angry and didn't yell at him for standing me up. That kind of behavior is not worth it. I was a
bit hurt, and a bit confused, and angry that I didn't know what was going on-you know us women, we need closure. Yelling,
screaming, carrying on-that's immature. I'm not 10 anymore. You can't hear someone's heart in a heated exchange, and
that's important to know what's happening inside them even if they're not verbalizing it. Though, if someone is slinging
mud and really gets my goat, I'm not quite so cool and collected and allow myself to get pulled into their muck sometimes.
This fortunately was not one of those times, he was very heartfeltly (is that a word? lol) sorry for embarrassing me in front
of my sister by not showing up, and for hurting me.
He does want to continue going to mass on Sundays, and made a 'date' for this coming Sunday.
He stressed there would be no kissing--wow. Is that noble, or what?
He was going too fast, realized it, and wants to just be friends. He said, you know if I do
change, you're not the type of girl to give 2nd chances, are you? I go with the spirit. We'll just have to see what happens.
He told me that I was so beautiful, inside and out, and that I deserve someone so much better than himself, and encouraged
me to see other people. That is just too cool. Sounds like eventually he does want to change, but not right now. We'll
see what happens.
I'm flattered by this exchange. I Didn't say too much, was kinda in shock that he even
called back to tell me what was on his heart.
He did treat me very respectfully the short time we were alone in the car together saying
goodnite. I could tell it was getting difficult for him, though.
Mon. 3/29/04
I had fun with my sis and brother in law. The kids are great, they loved
their gifts! Was nice to hold my nephew. Had to make sure mom was in his plain site so he wouldn't freak out. :)My niece was
a bit standoffish at first, but when I had her brother she came over and was a nonstop chatterbox! I got her a hello
kitty nail set from Avon, she just loved it!
I've been inspired to write 2 more poems. Go here: http://poetry.rules.it
Sun. 3/28
About a month ago, my brakes went out on me--AGAIN! Funny, I was on my way to the auto repair
shop to deliver an Avon order. The guy who fixed my car asked me out, and for some strange reason I said yes.
We dated about a month, then weirdness happened. So, we're not dating anymore. He seemed like a great guy, liked coming to
mass. He even talked about joining the church! Wow. What a liar. lol! Now I have more time to devote to my studies.
I'm going to meet with my sister and her family tonite, to exchange Christmas gifts--lol.
We don't see each other much.
Have a good day, have to get ready for mass now.
Sat. Feb. 14, '04
Goodness! You are not going to believe what has happened! Unless of course you know me. Such an 'Anne'
thing.
Here goes. The guy I told you about previously, I think I did. Anyway here's a quick rundown of events
leading up to this past week. Moved in with this lady, and she moved a guy in who had been in prison for 12 years. I avoided
him for about a month, lol. Didn't even know what he looked like! rofl. ok, not funny-really hurt his feelings, but didn't
mean to. Few months later, he moves in his friend, another guy, We'll call him Charles. We'll call the former inmate, Mate.
Mate takes a liking to me, after he's finally seen me. ;) He's funny, respectful-he didn't even look
at me when I was in my bathrobe. What a sweety. Didn't swear in front of me nor tell dirty jokes. Mate asked me out one night
when I was studying in the main living area. I turned him down. Didn't know him very well even then-we only joked around a
bit, then I would retreat to my room to do homework on my computer. Wasn't interested in the least in dating anyone,
got studying to do. Need to focus. Well, Mate's handsome, funny, and was respectful towards me. I fell in love, tried to avoid
it but darn, the guy LIVES here and I always see him.
Time goes on, the landlady is encouraging him to date other women. He does, gets his heart broke
numerous times, which I knew would happen. Gave the chastity talk a few times, hoping they all would at least think about
it. Meanwhile, my heart breaking too because he's hurting. And sleeping with other women. ugh. Well, making it short
now, he hugged me one day in the kitchen, and I pulled back and said what are you doing? He had such a hurt look on his face.
:( I told him, you know, you chase me around and do all these romantic things, but we never talk. So we talked, decided to
date. That was Monday night.
Tuesday night, he tells landlady, who we'll abbreviate to ll. ll gets cheesed, storms into the dining
area and tells me i have to move. ll told Mate if he wanted to stay, he couldn't see me. huh? wha?
Well, fortunately I had interviewed another lady last month for a room, but was concerned about moving
in with another person-got used to it around here. So it turns out the room she had is still available, and thank God i have
someplace to stay. At least for the time being, we'll see if she goes postal in the future. (I just have that kind of
luck with folks I live with, honestly!)
Meantime, Mate left and went to stay with relatives. He's not sure yet how long he can stay there,
but he doesn't cook for himself and I'm concerned he'll starve.
'Charles' is still here, but mighty uncomfortable. He's a great guy, though he tries to pretend he's
not. ll keeps picking at me, nonstop and won't give me back the rest of the rent back for this month. She
even told me she didn't like me, never did, and no one in the house likes me, they only tolerate me. Which I know for a fact
to be a lie, the guys like me! lol. I never did anything to hurt this woman, I think she had/has a crush on Mate and that's
why she went bananas on both of us.
I caught Charles the other day in the kitchen when he got up for work, I couldn't sleep very well
and haven't been eating much, either. I told him all about my new place, and that I would miss him, he's such a good friend.
Gave him a hug, and I think he was crying, but I couldn't really tell because he just got in from smoking his 'medicine'.
:~ I think actually he was getting teary eyed, and made a getaway to his room to finish getting ready for work. He usually
goes away for the weekend, but stayed home this weekend, which I'm grateful for, even if he didn't stay home to keep ll off
my back. But, I think he may have.......don't know for sure. It's nice to think that, anyway. :)
The new landlady is a Christian, and prayerful, so perhaps there will not be this drama going on
with her. She seems pretty decent, is cultured, she likes plays, dance, art-same kinds of things I do, and she's a convert
to Catholocism. In fact, she's a former parishoner of Pastor Alex Jones, a local former Pentecostal minister who
converted and brought his congregation in the Catholic church with him in 2000. I had always hoped to get to know him
and his wife, and though they are not at the parish they came into which is down the street from my new place, the
rest of his group are. perhaps I will yet be able to hang out with the Jones'. I think I will change my parish and
go to St. Suzanne's which will be much closer than the one I'm going to now, and just visit my current parish every
now and again. I'm very excited, yet a bit scared............ :|
Even found movers, who will actually work all day until everything's done! This has never, ever happened
in all the times I've had to move. Usually it takes forever and a day to find a place I can afford, then it takes forever
and a day to find some folks to help move, then they quit after a few loads and I never see them again! lol. It's kinda weird
how this is all coming together. It's a good weird, but weird just the same. God is good! One of my Avon customer's hubbies
is helping out, and he overheard our conversation about this situation, and he wanted to get me out right away but I couldn't
leave because I still had to make arrangements with the new ll. This couple is such a blessing, such good folks, please pray
for them for good things. O, and pray for all the other folks mentioned here. man, I've got to hurry and get holied up again.
It's difficult to be around folks who are not praying and trying to be good. :) I was changing, and not for the better. Even
started swearing, again........uh,oh. Hopefully none of those nasties escape me whenever I talk with my new ll.
Saturday, Jan. 31, '04
Wow, been a long time. Housesitting/dogsitting this week. Murphy's a cool lil doggy. Well, actually
a big lil doggy! lol.
Managed to get through the first semester. It's really difficult after not being in a learning environment
for so long. I encourage you, if you think you may go back to further your education, read, read, read now. Read everything
and anything you can, do crossword puzzles, etc. It will help your comprehension level, focus and attention span. I didn't
read much after high school-and didn't make the honor roll in college as I wanted to. In fact, I'm on acedemic probation this
term. Lots of stress at home and car breaking down every other week it seems. Fortunately I don't have all the papers and
research to do this time around, so it should be a bit easier to get a better grade. I'm really disheartened that I didn't
do better-I so wanted the honor roll.
The field I'm going into, Business Administration, puts a high focus on personality and what makes
people tick. This is totally awesome, and very exciting to me. It is important to understand the folks around you and to help
them do better in their work, by bringing out the best they can be. This is totally up my alley. I originally wanted to go
into phsycology, but the push for drugging patients is so high in this area of the US that I just couldn't bring myself to
take it up as a career. Almost as if the phsycology field has no use for challenging people to be better and to think differently,
they just want to medicate and help you cover up the pain that is holding you bound. Makes no sense, it's like putting a blanket
over a set of chains around your wrist-chains are still there, yet no one can see them. You still have the inability and dysfunctions
from the chains, and made worse by the blanket covering your hands, yet the blanket is soft and cuddly and you don't mind
so much that you can't function. The warm and fuzzy feeling of being stoned halfway out the mind, to the point you don't care
what you do or how you do it.
Couple of weeks ago, I talked to a lady online who was selling some houses. i inquired about them,
of course knowing full well I couldn't afford one right now, but had a hopeful wonder about the prices. The lady put me in
touch with a guy she knows, who is looking for something which I can afford in an area by Madonna University. It is possible
I can perhaps get a home of my own. It would be a sheer miracle to find something, but she seems to think it can be done.
We'll see.
Meantime, I'm still living in someone elses' home, renting a room and now there are 2 guys there.
The guy who was in prison had his friend move in a few months ago, and he is perhaps moving out, no one is really certain
what he's doing. He hasn't been around since his truck broke down a few weeks ago, he's staying with someone for the
time being until he can get his vehicle fixed. Someone in that area goes by his work, so he has a way to get dropped off and
picked up. Hope all works out for him, whatever he does. Don't know if the friend is going to stay or how long he will be
there. In a way, I will miss the upheaval in the house, but will welcome the peace. Make any sense? lol
It will be very strange just being alone with the woman who owns the house again, if both the guys
do move out. there's a competition factor between us, and I don't quite know how to handle the situation. ie: how much of
it is me, what do I need to change in myself to bring peace and harmony. I don't mean change in a co-dependant sickly way
where I would change according to what others think I should be, but according to what God made me to be. that is: do no harm,
be encouraging, kind, but don't allow others to make you a doormat.
I'm off to find some resources online for a presentation I'm doing. Any prayers for this would
be much appreciated, and you are in my prayers. Thank you for reading.
I guess, since I miraculously have some time on my hands I will write a bit
about what's going on in my life. For the rest, please go to the links page.
Sat. July 19
Decided to begin writing again, got inspired last night. The whole story bursting through
my head but by this am I forgot what it was about. lol
It's called Windy City, a romantic murder mystery. Definately a chick book, but perhaps some
guys would like it too.
Here it is if you want to look:
Also have it listed on the links page. Hope you enjoy it. Please feel free to critique, I
know I'm rusty in my command of the English language. Thanks!
Thursday July 3, 2003
I finally was able to get a few folks lined up to help me move the rest of the stuff out of
the ex-roomie's place yesturday. Sore. Think I'm gonna die.
Saw roomie tonite on the way in to an AWESOME healing mass (our priest left for a year and we
got a retired professor from a seminary on the East Coast-he is terrific! He saw an ad placed by Fr. Charles for a priest,
and retiring this year had planned on coming back to MI to be with his family, he grew up here. Fr. Dan looks in his 50's
though he's 75-still has dark hair with sprinkles of grey. Amazing!) Well, I gave ex-roomie the keys, only I also gave him
the key to the place I am now. Of course my new roomate was out of town tonite, exroomie already in bed so my call didn't
go through to try to get my key(I dallied around talking and eating in the church basement, then watched the fireworks a bit.
Right outside the church we could see them pretty ok) and fortunately the other roomie in the basement of the house heard
the dog barking (killer is his name but he's definately a sweetheart) let me in. I woke her. Not getting off on a good
start at all!
Found my checks. Believe it or not, in a box I had looked in several times. ?? scratching head.
How could I miss those?
Have to consolidate my things, I do have a lot of stuff. Work on crafts and art and have tons
of projects to tackle. probably won't be able to do much around here though, just the jewelry. That doesn't take up too much
space to work on, but o my do I have beads! wow. At least 10 shoe boxes, and several other boxes of beads and little trinkets,
broken jewelry others have given me to create something else. Didn't realize I had that much. Not doing any more shopping
for beads or findings for certain until some of this stuff gets worked on, finished and sold. Been concentrating so much on
Avon, moving and getting into Madonna U I haven't had much chance to work on my jewelry. I guess that's ok, most of the folks
I know have several pieces of mine already, I'll just have to wait until Christmas to haul it out again to try to sell some.
One of these days I'm going to get it online and show you; perhaps you would like to own some.
:D I'd like to have a stock of sorts first off-I hate working under pressure. It's one thing to do it at my leisure, quite
another to have all the pressure from making something in a time frame. Things come up, can't get to it right away, the links
in the hand-made chains don't come out as perfectly as I would like. So, we wait together until I get enough done that I feel
comfortable showing them off and taking orders.
Check back around October 2003, I should have something up by then. O, but do come back any
time.
New roomie, Lorraine got on me yesturday. Between stressing out, not eating properly and using
Avon Slimwell I have lost a lot of weight, don't know how much but I'm no longer in a 1x. My clothes were hanging off of me,
and I didn't even notice! I got into a tight pair of old medium bicycle pants today; they split in the unmentionable area.
Fortunately I didn't wear those out, just around here. :D So no one saw my undies. :)
Lorraine was telling me I looked well, like a slob of sorts because the way my clothes just
hang on me. She made me take a good look in the mirror, and I was shocked! Not that I don't ever look at myself or how my
clothes look, but for some reason I never really noticed how they are just hanging on me. Still dressing like a fat lady!
Had to change a bunch of times today, I like t-shirts big but they look rather silly on me since I've shrunk so
much. Now I need new clothes. sigh. Some nice things I had don't fit anymore, and Lorraine took them right out of my hands.
lol. Is good though, because I'm sort of a packrat and figure well, my figure goes up and down so it's good to hang on to
stuff. Well, I shouldn't. Have so much clothes it's unreal, and I don't understand it really because I rarely shop since I've
been on disability. Just can't afford to. Now I'm sad; have some really cool leopard pants that are actually pajamas but don't
look like it that are 1x. I did just get those within the past 2 years, a few different sets. Family Dollar, 10 bucks for
pants and shirt. The shirts are nice, both the pants and shirt are a velvety material; the shirts black. but they are all
too big for me now! by the time I begin school, if I keep shrinking like this I will disappear in them. :)
Lorraine said when she gets her check she's taking me shopping for 1 nice outfit, underthings
included. Even my undies are too big now! one pair I could almost wear over my chest.........
I'm very excited-found a shop online that sells smokes for $11.75 a CARTON including s&h!
Ya, I know smokings' bad, it's expensive, I'm poor and shouldn't allow myself the luxary, blah blah but I will save $$ now
at least on smokes. They are the Native brand, all natural so it's healthy tobacco I'll be smoking. ;)
Going to bed now, it's after 1am. Tired. Need to do some Avon-ing in the afternoon and hopefully
pick up some orders. Not doing as well as I had hoped, but at least now I can get some things I need every once in awhile.
Was hoping to be able to get at least $100.00 or so to put away for a downpayment on something, but that's looking rather
impossible at the moment. Have got some orders from folks who cancelled, had got some wrong things which need to be returned,
etc and I actually owe them $$ now, even after collecting from my folks. Perhaps within the next month I will catch up and
actually make something off it. Can't believe how far behind I am. I'm generally good with $$ and still trying to figure out
what went wrong. I don't think I owe that much, didn't think I had spent that. But reflecting back, when I had cash from folks
I had purchased a bunch of plastic boxes to store things, some under the bed with rollers which don't fit under Lorraine's
spare bed; this bed is too short! So I have them sticking out like torpedos out of my closet. ugh. Looks terrible. So it's
quite possible I did spend the $$, now have to make up for it by putting all the commission back into my orders, so I get
nothing for at least a month, unless of course the orders jump up by at least $100.00; generally I do right around $350-$400
in sales, and commission is based on the amount. If I could do some $5-$600 orders, would be set. That's my goal for the month
of July, to get up to at least $500.00 in sales, and by Sept/Oct $600.00. It's not easy.
Night!
:D
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